In a symphony of soundless mystery
I watch you standing
At a river's edge
Looking down
Bloodred waters

Rushing at you

I want you to look up
Stop contemplating
Start breathing
But you won't this time
No matter how loud

I'm screaming

Please stop the sounds of your thoughts
They echo so loud
In my heart
I know I'll never leave you
But I want to

Break free

For the last time
I say it
Let go
Stop dreaming of the life you've never
Wanted
Had

Could have done so much more

Wouldn't
You have told me
The same thing?
Once upon a time
In a fantasy land
Of death and decay

Never alone here

You told me once
That you wanted to
Kill
Die
Love
Hurt
Why didn't you

Stop

I don't want to hear this
Anymore
Than I did the last time
But you
Tell me anyway

About the time

That this sad life
Came to an end
Harsh isn't it?
The way she screamed
At first

So quiet

In the end
You told me to stop
But why
I don't recall
You told me not to cry
So I told you not to fall

Away from me

You walked
Slowly at first
Quicker
Than a rapid river flows
When draining out on

A downward slope

Of feelings
Sinking lower and lower
Into a despair
That eats away at

Everything I want

Now matter what
It evades me
Hope is for the
Weak
Lucky
People that I never want to see

Near death's door

Again
I watch as you walk
Further
Running now
As you feel
My eyes on

Your back

Is turned away from me
Hiding what you'll never
Show
Now open up
That heart
Before I

Rip it out

Dripping
Tears are falling
Everywhere is
Nowhere
Without

You

Left me
Again
And over again
For nothing
But

I'm still waiting.